Ok first thing do you have children. If so do you love them ,,if so. There is your reason to try harder .keep your home as clean as possible. Make meals healthy the best you can, then have everyone do one choir in the house OR Help at least. Pick up a hobby ,like knitting ,reading, som craft. This changes our minds . Good luck. Let me know how it goes.

Hobby using your hands like knitting is fantastic way to keep hands and minds busy! Try knitting baby hats for local ICU ? An added feel good factor.
Check out other charities too.

It is hard watching people around you carry on as usual whilst knowing u struggle and seemingly they don’t care. I’m sure they do .. perhaps don’t realise how their behaviour impacts on you.. I did decide to tell my family in the end how their support of me by telling me what u can eat whilst they eat what they like was hurtful sometimes ( think eating out and they say “look they do a salad so Wendy can eat here! Then they order a pizza!!)

Once they understood that such outings were not as much fun for me as them they were more considerate in their choices around me.. as they can eat as they like when not with me.

So try talking to friends and family about how you feel.. at first I I did sound like a 4 tear old throwing my toys out of the pram but asking them to make same choices as me for just one full day showed them how hard my choices can be.

I did have to remind some people more than once (gently) and now many of my friends and family actually follow similar eating habitats more often even if not quite as strictly. Watching my weight disappear so fast was an inspiration for them.

Failing that talk to us here and we can all support you through dark times.
Many of us do have difficult days when we are not as cheerful as we would like to be.

Take care
❤️❤️❤️

Wpepsi